Integration: The Process of Embodied Transformation

Timelines flashing before the third eye. A fierce warrior loving presence. Holding its center as the eye in the middle of a hurricane. No matter how intense the winds of the energetic current are, it doesn’t loose its ground. This is the embodiment of integration within the nervous system.

Integration is a transpersonal process. It is when the system recallibrates to the original state of oneness, or wholeness. It is a sort of settling into Self. It is a grounded force of nature which harmonizes the twirling dynamic matter into a state of coherence. Ultimately, it is the art and science of transformation. Genuine somatic shifts happen through the process of integration- new phases and stages of embodiment.It is when the freshness of receiving life is breathed into every cell, danced into the bones, and pressed into spiraling DNA.

In the dictionary explains integration as,  “an act or instance of combining into an integral whole”. The etymology is from Latin integrat- ‘made whole’, from the verb integrare, from integer ‘whole’. Integration can be perceived as the embodied expression of healing- which the etymology of healing also means to ‘make whole’.

Wholeness is who humans are at their core. Never broken or shattered.It is who we have been all along-the fundamental state of being which is unshakable. This state of being is also known as loving presence. Within the most subtle dimension, integration is the voluntary process of psychic somatic organization.

There are many dimensions to the process of integration. It is happening across quantum timelines and from the freshness of daily experiences. Regardless if an implicit memory from the sixth grade playground is processing within the soma or if an impactful conversation from an hour prior is brewing within the psyche, all transformation is occurring within the most subtle neurobiological layers of the nervous system. Daniel Sigel states, “Integration”—the ways in which functionally distinct components come to be clustered into a functional whole—may be a fundamental way in which the nervous system functions.”(Siegel)

The system is always desiring to find homeostasis, balance, and connection. Neural integration is a way of opening up communication pathways in the brain which may shut down because of stress. New networks and pathways open up, shifting the default mode networks of the brain through consciously meeting the nervous system with compassionate attunement. It creates fluidity within the energy flow and thaws out blocks through wholehearted warmth. This process is also known as neuroplacitiy, the ability to function in some way that differs from previous functioning.

When there is loving cohesive awareness, the fragmented and disassociated parts of psyche (occurring from traumatic experience ) can reimprint into the system as safety, which allows relaxation within the system and fresh pathways to open up. Sigel states, “These integrative processes can be proposed to be at the core of emotional well-being and psychological resilience. The ongoing, dynamic process of integration may be fundamental to the evolving mechanisms within the life of an individual continual movement toward mental health.” (Siegel)

The reason integration is at the core of wellbeing is because it is a homecoming to relaxed and soothed states of being. Integration can be seen as the glue to the lost frazzled puzzle pieces which allow them all merge into maturation. The key to wellbeing is living in greater states of ventral vagal- which requires nervous system regulation.

There is a theory called Polyvagal. Shame expert Bret Lyon states, “Polyvagal Theory provides an innovative scientific perspective to study feelings of safety that incorporates an understanding of neurophysiology.(Lyon, 2021) There are three elementary states in this theory : ventral vagal (the social engagement system) sympathetic system (fight : flight) and the dorsal vagal (freeze : shut down).  Living consistently in sympathetic and dorsal vagal is a representation of unintegrated parts taking up prime real-estate within the psyche: soma.

Ventral Vagal qualities are known as compassionate, mindful, grounded, settled, calmness, curiosity, and openness. Ventral is a parasympathetic state within the nervous system related to health and vitality, oxytocin, and ability to relate and connect to others. In the modality, Internal Family Systems, created by Rich Schwartz this state is also known as Self energy. There are eight main components to Self in this model: curiosity, calm, connectedness, confidence, clarity, compassion, courage, and creativity.

The process of integration is what transforms disassociated and dysregulated states into higher functioning within the system- or organization. There is a capacity to witness the frazzled snow globe with a heightened awareness that you are not the fearful fragmented parts. This capacity to stay centered with is a sign you are functioning within the ventral vagal spectrum.

When Self energy is present it is possible to integrate the younger timelines. Life is a spiral journey. There is constant ebbing and flowing from previous cycles into present time reality, for the potential of healing. Every time you approach a wounded younger time line with an expanded state of consciousness, you are able to lessen the charge within the system and embody greater wholeness. You know there is healing within the nervous system because the charge eventually is non existent. What would have invoked trembling vulnerability, eventually is integrated and firm within the system. It is when the bloody wound transforms into a scar. Still present and part of the body, yet integrated and sealed, now to tell a story and be provided as medicine.

A potent question to tune into when you notice vulnerability or dysregulation is, how old am I right now? Although it may seem as if you are your adult self, so often the thirteen year old or eight year old who didn’t receive attuned love will show up begging for attention from the mature adult, aka loving presence. When you notice a younger child part showing up, you can be in relationship with it rather than it hiijaking your system. In internal family systems model this is called ‘unbending’. ‘Blending’ with the dissociative ego states (younger parts ) is when there is no conscious awareness and the part becomes the self you believe you are. Unblending can only happen when you return to the Self, locate the dissociative parts within the body and focus on the felt sense with warm awareness.

So often in a psychedelic journey (whether it be working with a substance or deep spiritual practice ) there is greater access to innate wholeness, Self energy. For so many this may be the first time they have come in contact with a greater sense of Self, which then embeds a somatic imprint. Returning home to safety and love. When a new somatic imprint encodes, there is availability for neuroplasticity. There is a good ol’ saying energy flows where awareness goes. When there is a somatic imprint of the Self within the system, you can begin to direct your focus into this energetic quality. This creates optimal distance and spaciousness from the dissociative parts, which allows the deep primal process of neurobiological transformation. Integration after a psychedelic  journey requires noticing where new imprints opened up in the system and consciously feeding these somatic imprints as a daily practice of awareness.

Integration is a conscious daily practice. It requires voluntary action or the free will to direct awareness.  Working intimately with the maco and micro realities is a potent way to energetically hydrate the unification process. The maco practice may look like integrating peak experiences. The micro practice may look like consciously tuning into energetic (or archetypal) qualities and then drenching your nervous system with these exalted states. Macro practices may include creating daily space to journal, meditate, reflect authentically with loved ones, or create art. The micro practices may look like intentionally anchoring radical self love and safety while driving, mind:body practices, sitting with and savoring a potent conversation or podcast you just listened to, etc. It is a mixture of subtle energetic awareness while wrapping up experiences with a contemplative bow. It is a way of allowing experiences to come together as a whole.

When there is a sense of settledness in the system, there is a high probability integration is transpiring. The nervous system is often like a snow globe, shaken up with parts floating in every which direction. After the snow globe settles it lands in a space of cohesiveness. Integration is the process of the system returning to a calm center, a perpetual sense and process of completion.

CITATION:

Siegel, D. J. (2001). Toward an interpersonal neurobiology of the developing mind: Attachment relationships, "mindsight," and neural integration. Infant Mental Health Journal, 22(1-2), 67–94. https://doi.org/10.1002/1097-0355(200101/04)22:1<67::AID-IMHJ3>3.0.CO;2-G

The Consciousness of Eden: Sacred Union + Wholeness

You are whole. Never broken. Yes. Even within the imperfections. Yes. Even as the excruciating wound oozes with puss. You are whole. Within the the holy mess and very human flaws within flesh. You are in the garden of eden even if it feels like the blazing fires of hell. God never left you and you never left God. You may forget. You may feel like you are drowning. You may even feel like giving up and fantasize about being out of the body. Yet, if you can come back to the loving presence within your heart you unite with God. You return to a state of being which has always existed before there was a somatic experience of separation or shame. Every time you return to loving presence, you become one with the entire Universe itself.

In the mythological creation story, Adam and Eve were known to be in the garden of paradise- purity. Eve was tempted by the serpent, whom was depicted as bad or satanic. After Eve eats the apple Adam and her ‘fall from grace’ and original sin is born- aka shame. In traditional Christianity, this is where there was  ‘separation’ from God and man became mortal. The serpent is an ancient symbol of the divine feminine and primal goddess- the sexual force of creation. This myth with a goddess consciousness lens holds a very different perspective than traditional Christianity. In the traditional story, because Eve followed desire or free will and fell into imperfection, she transgressed from the sacred into a flawed human who was ‘bad’ or ‘wrong’. The divine feminine flip to this myth would be we have always been whole, even within imperfection. WWe never left the garden. The divine feminine cyclic journey is about forgetting and remembering, seeking sacred union with God within the dynamic nature of being human.

The serpent is an initiatory force into the mystery school of being Divine in body. The serpent opens up the portal for Adam and Eve to birth into human form. This is similar to a soul  birthing through the star gate portal of the womb through the act of love making. The soul. Once formless. In the etheric realms. Miraculously brought into form through the feminine body- creation herself.  You can view the serpent and apple as the womb herself. The birthing portal of new life. Blasting Adam Eve into a fresh dimension of experience- being human.

This relates with John Bowlby’s attatchment theory. Attachment theory is a psychological and evolutionary theory which dives into the relationships between humans.  At first, young infants are not aware that they are separate beings. When an infant is born their neocortex is not formed, so they don’t have a concept of an individual self. They are merely one with the present moment, or you can say God.  Bowbly states, “At birth, the newborn has no sense of time in the way adults experience time as a flow .The newborn lives in an eternal now. What she is experiencing at this moment is all that there ever has been and all that ever was. We believe that at the very beginning of life she doesn’t remember being hungry or empty and she doesn’t know she will be hungry and empty again. What she is experiencing now is all that matters. “ (Karen, 2001 ) As the child develops shame begins to imprint in their system through misattunement from their caregiver. This is where they forget they are one with the eternal now moment (wholeness, source, god, mother ), begin the play of forgetting, and take on a deceptive ego identity.

Shame is the core of the traditional story. Because they believed in ‘forbidding the order of god’ shame became the somatic affect of separation, the sacred core wound. The separation wound is sacred because it is the holy alter of union. The game of self actualization. The gnosis of oneself as Love itself. The goddess consciousness flip of this myth is one of radical self love and acceptance. The sacred feminine is paradox. Soul and body. Imperfect and whole. Light and dark. Death and birth. Pleasure and pain. She is the force of evolution. Without the goddess, there is no form or play of consciousness. She is the dimension of full spectrum feeling and the richness of being alive. Through her kinky longing to know God through duality, she is taken and ravished into love making with the Universe itself.

In classic tantric traditions there is Shiva and Shakti. Shiva represents the divine masculine, the inner sky of consciousness. Shakti represents the goddess- the primordial cosmic energy which manifests itself into all expressions of matter. The divine feminine is the raw material of experience itself, the masculine is pure consciousness. The garden of eden psychology represents a state of innocence and perfection, then split into seemingly separate reality. In tantric traditions all is one. God consciousness is in all. There is light in the dark. There is holiness in the mess. There is divinity within chaos. Because all is wrapped with Loving presence. The garden of eden represents union with the universe- or wholeness. The apple represents Venus, the archetypal goddess relating to desire, quantum time lines, and spiral cycles. Eve embarks on the mythical tale of human desire and freedom when she decides to taste the nectar of the apple. Because humans have free will, they will misattune from Loving presence and experience the clouds of shame.

The same experience happens within early attachment. Bowlby states, “For the first 6 months of life, the baby ideally is simply enjoyed and taken care of. His sense of himself develops in the context of another who values him, holds him, takes care of him, and so on. When the young child’s needs are not met he always assumes there is something wrong with him, not his parents. He falls into shame” (Karen, 2001). Attunement is wholeness, or the consciousness of Eden (Shiva). When the care giver is misattuned they leave the garden and the child's system registers ‘there is something wrong with me.’ They become the shame ridden characters in Eden. The caregiver being God for the infant. Separation being the experience of misattunement (or imperfection). Attachment theory and the creation story weave a common thread with  ‘I did something wrong’. When the care giver isn’t attuned to their child, it isn’t because they are bad parents they are merely imperfect humans. To be human is to be imperfect while never leaving the wholeness of Eden.

There is a theory called Polyvagal. Shame expert Bret Lyon states, “Polyvagal Theory provides an innovative scientific perspective to study feelings of safety that incorporates an understanding of neurophysiology.(Lyon, 2021) There are three elementary states in this theory : ventral vagal (the social engagement system) sympathetic system (fight / flight) and the dorsal vagal (freeze / shut down / immobility). Shame is directly related to dorsal vagal - the freeze response. Typical responses when in dorsal are dissociation, numbness, depression, loss of energy, helplessness, shut down, and trappedness. 

Polyvagal theroy is connected to the creation myth because it is the scientific theory of the forgetfulness of God within. It is mysticism articulated within the palpability of the nervous system. Eden is a state of coherence. The tantric or goddess tradition approach to coherence God gnosis is through integration of imperfections, or split realties. Daniel Siegel states, “Integration”—the ways in which functionally distinct components come to be clustered into a functional whole—may be a fundamental way in which the nervous system functions.The “wholeness” of this integrative process can be described within the concept of “coherence” in which the disparate elements contribute to the flow of a system toward maximal complexity.”(Siegel, 2001) The experience of God is within the human nervous system. When applying this theory to the creation myth, Adam and Eve fell into a dorsal shut down state through shame affect. This became an imprint within the nervous system, which then perpetuates further disconnection and dysregualtion (forgetfulness) through lack of integration or digestion of raw energy. Shiva making love with Shakti on a moment to moment basis. Loving presence is the bridge back to coherence or ventral after a dorsal shut down.

Paradise ultimately is a state of being. It is a soothed and coherent state within the nervous system. It is inner peace and the heart frequency. It is the softness of pleasure. It is living more consistently in ventral vagus which requires meeting the many layers of shame and dorsal shut down with radical compassion. It is only through the presence of love the layers of trauma (separation : fragmentation) integrate into an embodied state of wholeness and one returns to the consciousness of eden. Experiencing consistent states of paradise requires devotion, persistence, and support. To be human living in year 2023 means you are probably living with a heavily dense traumatized body- yet returning to the embodiment of eden is where we are heading. Some may call this ‘ascension’- which also can be perceived as the dense layers of trauma/shame purification process through the presence of Love. Eden begins with meeting yourself with acceptance and softness one moment at a time. This is the core of healing shame and remembering who you really are-which is always one with God. You are God itself incarnated in human form- imperfect and whole.

WORK CITED:

Johnson, Alexis. (2006). Healing Shame. The Humanistic Psychologist. vol 34(3) 223-242.

Bret Lyon, P. D. (2021, March 4). Anatomy of a freeze – or dorsal vagal shutdown. Center for Healing Shame. Retrieved March 10, 2023, from https://healingshame.com/articles/anatomy-of-a-freeze-or-dorsal-vagal-shutdown-bret-lyon-phdÂ

Siegel, D. J. (2001). Toward an interpersonal neurobiology of the developing mind: Attachment relationships, "mindsight," and neural integration. Infant Mental Health Journal, 22(1-2), 67–94. https://doi.org/10.1002/1097-0355(200101/04)22:1<67::AID-IMHJ3>3.0.CO;2-G

Becoming Whole Through Radical Acceptance

“Stop trying to heal yourself, fix yourself, even awaken yourself. Let go of letting go. Stop trying to fast-forward the movie of your life, chasing futures that never seem to arrive. Instead, bow deeply to yourself as you actually are.”- Jeff Foster

Many moons ago I dreamt of becoming whole. I longed and ached and sizzled inside for the sensation of completeness. I bowed on my knees with my hands in prayer, crying to God to help me accept myself and find comfort within my itchy skin. I could imagine no greater ‘success’ than experiencing sustainable serenity and a soothed nervous system.

When I began my sober recovery journey I believed ‘always being in the light’- cheerful, expansive, kind, warm, and loving towards others- was the experience of wholeness. I rediscovered the expansive giddy part of myself for the first time since I was a little girl and throughly enjoyed this part. The dilemma was that I hated myself when I felt bitter, closed off, or contracted. I denied all shadow qualities and aggressively tried to force myself into the ‘light’.

I would isolate and sit in meditation for hours trying to ‘raise my vibration’.  I would run out of yoga classes and twelve step meetings so no one would see or feel me if I wasn’t in a ‘high vibe’ state. I was terrified of experiencing shame related to not being perceived as the ‘bubbly bright Mallory’ I correlated with as my ‘whole self’.

The message I wish younger Mallory would have known is that you are always whole in each and every moment. You don’t have to ‘change your state’ to feel or be enough. You can feel liberated and relaxed if you learn how to embrace your raw authentic expression.

You may disassociate from intrinsic embodied wholeness according to how you believe you ‘should’ be. For example: in cheerfulness, this much money in the bank, a certain body size or emotional state, etc. These expectations may create a split within the mind body. Yet, you can return to wholeness in any moment through returning back to the body, noticing what is happening internally, and claiming the seat as the one holding the present experience.

Any time you wrong your emotions, life experience, or any particular part- the coherent stable sense of self splits. Radical acceptance is psychic glue which holds and brings together the fragmented internal reality back into a state of congruence . Radical acceptance is an expansive spacious holding environment which warmly welcomes all and integrates the parts of the inner family who have been rejected back into a state of wholeness.

Western culture encourages perfectionism-a lack of reverence towards the full spectrum human experience. Western culture conditions a hierarchy of particular emotions or ‘the ideal life’ which trickles into the individual’s consciousness and typically manifests as shame if one doesn’t measure to the standard. It makes sense when less desirable aspects show up that there would be self rejection. Shame, or self rejection, is deeply hardwired into the collective psyche. Self rejection is the split from wholeness.

The story that wholeness must look, feel, or act a certain way is the greatest myth ever. As long as you aim for an image of wholeness, you will drift away from the very real experience happening within the body. Meeting yourself within the body is what ultimately liberates, loosens, and expands. Meeting the whole dynamic cognitive, emotional, and somatic experience of what is here in the now is embodied wholeness. The internal world is chaotic and wild. What is consistent is awareness. The body is an anchor to rediscover resting awareness.

Back in the ‘I need to be love and light always’ days I existed primarily in psychic fragmentation and disembodied states from extreme self rejection. I placed wholeness in an image of how I desired to be seen and show up. If I didn’t show up as ‘Mallory in the light’ then I believed I was absolutely unlovable. Learning how to accept myself, regardless of how I perceived others would perceive as likable, was the foundation of discovering comfort within my skin. My prayers of wholeness answered itself when I stopped placing wholeness in a future based lifeless image and embraced the alive expression of myself in the now.

Every micro subtle moment of accepting what is present allows a greater macro acceptance of unapologetic authentic expression. Every moment there is acceptance it cultivates strength in the secure sense of self, which creates space for greater confidence in who you are in any given moment.

The moment you notice you are in a disembodied reality around how you ‘should be or show up’ is a brilliant opportunity to come back to your body, meet yourself intimately, and experience wholeness. In these moments can you notice what is happening within your skin, what sensations are present, and can you meet them with a warm loving presence? In these moments a powerful mantra to practice is, “I am whole in sadness. I am whole in messiness. I am whole in bitterness. I am whole in this imperfections. I am wholeness wrapped around this raw experience”

You may not feel instant relief from discomfort, this is okay, you are whole within discomfort. The more willingness you have to meet yourself, the greater capacity there is for the discomfort to transform and experience rapid resilience. There is a good ol’ saying ‘what you resists persists’. Chaos and pain is amplified if you resist what you are feeling or how you are showing up. Accepting what is allows the crisp fresh air like on a fall morning. It relieves the pressure of perfectionism and offers permission to be fully human.

What my younger self didn’t realize was the ‘light’ is always available and doesn’t need to arrive in a particular flavor or color. I didn’t understand at the time that ‘light’ or ‘expansion’ is not the expression you show up with- it is the internal holding environment which holds the totality of experience. Expansion is radical acceptance. Expansion is unconditional love. Expansion is awareness holding raw dynamic energy. Expansion is wrapping the whole experience of the present moment.

Transforming Wounds into Scars Through Radical Self Love

“When I look a certain way I am lovable”

“When I have an open heart I am lovable”

“When I am articulate I am lovable”

“When I am in the light I am lovable”

“When I am perfect I am lovable”

Do any of these sound familiar to you? If so, welcome to the experience of being human! Humans are seduced by the belief that certain emotions and parts of ourselves are more lovable than others. We may feel once we achieve a certain status then we’ll be worthy and whole. Many of us are terrified of our shadows because society convinces there is something wrong with us if were aren’t ‘happy’ or ‘stable’. We may believe that we are ‘bad’ when we feel bitter, sharp, cold, and dull.  As long as we are human we will be light dancing with shadow although. Our flaws are just as lovable as the idealized parts of ourselves. As poet Rumi states, “The wound is where the light enters.” Within the bloody gaping wound is where we get to embody the love of the Divine within.

It is difficult to embody the ‘higher version’ of ourselves if we don’t accept exactly how we show up in our raw expression.I would love to offer a reframe that the higher self is merely radical self acceptance. What could be ‘higher’ than unconditional love! You see, when we place certain parts of ourselves on a pedestal we end up rejecting the others and they are suppressed into the unconscious. Our unconscious is the shadow realm. These parts will continue to surface to our conscious awareness, aka the light, until they are integrated and held. Radical acceptance of our imperfections is expansion. It is light. When we allow whatever is presenting itself to be there without resistance, it organically shifts and transforms. The warmth of acceptance is like the beaming sun shining it’s rays on a frozen iceberg. The iceberg (or unprocessed memory) in our nervous system begins to melt into fluid energy. From this space other parts of ourselves are discovered like a hidden treasure chest in the depth of the ocean.

The light of our awareness is the same magic which allows the beast to transform into beauty. In the fairy tale, Beauty and the Beast, the beast represents the shadow and Belle represents the light of our loving awareness- the true self. There was a spell casted over the prince and Belle was forced to stay with him. At first she rejected his ‘ugliness’ which only made him act more vicious. Once she fell in love with him for who he was the spell was broken and the beast transformed into beauty. This is an archetypal story of the alchemy which happens within the human psyche when we cast love to our darkest shadows and deepest flaws. We don’t have to like them. We don’t even have to love them. We just need to be willing to trust they are worthy of our acceptance.

One of the reasons it is challenging to accept our inner beast is because we identify it as who we are. Our shadow is wounds from the past which were left unprocessed in the nervous system. When we experience pain and it is past our window of tolerance (our ability to contain our experience with regulation) it then gets locked into the amygdala (or fear center in the brain). Life will continue to trigger us so that these unprocessed memories, aka shadows, can heal until there is no charge. The big misconception about our shadow is that it is ‘bad’ or ‘unlovable’. We are taught that it needs to go away, or the worst, ‘be destroyed’. Is this the way a parent would talk to their sweet baby crying though? The shadow is merely a cry for emotional attunement. It want’s to be held. It is a call for radical self-love. Our true self is not the shadow, it is the regulated parent.

The parts of ourselves we often reject are not just our hurt inner child- but the wounded child within our mother,  grandmother, and ancestral line. When these shadows are not integrated(or held with love) they continue to get handed down from one generation after the next. The child within is a mirror of the collective pain. We are a host for all of the collective wounds. Every time we choose to meet our shadow with kindness, we are quite literally healing the collective psyche. We are embodying the Divine parent who loves all of it’s children’s the same no matter how naughty or obnoxious they are.

We intimately know and embody our Divinity as we choose into radical self love. Self love is the medicine which heals our bloody wounds into scars. It restores the sight of our intrinsic wholeness and beauty. We are always whole within every experience- no matter how raw, shattered, and dark it may feel. As we see our shadow as an innocent child we realize we were never broken and don’t have to be ‘fixed’. We were perfect all along because perfection is our loving awareness which contains all with a warm embracive hug and kiss. Remembering radical self-love is the magic which transforms beasts into beauty and shame into sovereignty. It is the miracle which reminds us that we are and always were lovable.

Fear of being with self.

Prickly panic.

Concorde paced thoughts.

Fear convinces.

Something ‘bad’ may happen.

Plans with attachment may fall through.

Friends and lovers and family members will no longer like or love me.

The worst of the worst spiraling like a tornado.

Mind persuades.

Dooms day.

Apocalypse is coming.

There is

so much fear.

That if the worst of the worst

Crystalizes into existence,

I will be left alone.

Stranded.

Curled up in a ball.

In an ally.

Next to a trash can.

Smelling like mold.

Crying.

Sobbing.

Wailing.

Screaming.

at the Beloved.

Mental health crumbling.

No motivation to doing anything.

Underneath all the fears

Isn’t really the thing I am afraid will occur.

It is the fear of facing myself.

When the most wratched demons

gleam their 2 toothed smile.

It is the terror of the most turbulent

States of mental health.

Having to be felt.

The nightmare.

Is not about the circumstance.

The fear isn’t the world itself.

It is the ability to meet myself.

Underneath the every day micro anxieties

Is the fear.

Do I really have the capacity to be with myself intimately?

Yet.

It is within the fear.

I get to meet myself

For it is within meeting myself

I meet god.

When fear arises.

Without bypassing the rawness

in the nervous system.

I choose

To smile.

Place my hands on my heart.

And remember.

This is where I meet God.

I will never be abandoned.

I will never be separate.

This is where

I get to meet God.

Within myself.

& come into unification.

With my intrinsic wholeness.